tell me, how do you feel?
Apr. 1st, 2021 09:58 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
lirelynSo this weekend I finished 山河令/Word of Honor, and then immediately started both a) writing a fic and b) rewatching. For a show that didn't really grab me until around episode 10-11, I sure did fall hard and fast.
The fic is a postcanon wenzhou story, and after writing almost exclusively MDZS for a while, WOW was it a different feeling to write characters who are actually sort of good at expressing intimacy and vulnerability with each other. For months now I've been mostly writing LWJ, WWX, and JC, each of whom has his own special way of avoiding sincere and direct expressions of feeling at all cost. It's a fantastic writing exercise, and it's also kind of exhausting.
Writing Zhou Zishu and Wen Kexing is so refreshing in contrast. I kept having moments of "ugh I probably need to camouflage this emotion more... oh wait, no, he really would just say that." I love how unreservedly they love each other, how neither of them feels like their love is a threat or a danger. They tease and deflect a little, but even when they're deflecting they usually do it in a way that tries to reveal something as well. They so badly want to know and be known. I just really love them a lot.
Sometime soon I want to muse on what makes me keen to write fic for a story, when there are others I love as much or more but don't particularly want to write for. Meantime, the wenzhou is almost done so I should be posting it this weekend and then getting back to my poor, sweet, emotionally-tongue-tied zhanchengxian.
The fic is a postcanon wenzhou story, and after writing almost exclusively MDZS for a while, WOW was it a different feeling to write characters who are actually sort of good at expressing intimacy and vulnerability with each other. For months now I've been mostly writing LWJ, WWX, and JC, each of whom has his own special way of avoiding sincere and direct expressions of feeling at all cost. It's a fantastic writing exercise, and it's also kind of exhausting.
Writing Zhou Zishu and Wen Kexing is so refreshing in contrast. I kept having moments of "ugh I probably need to camouflage this emotion more... oh wait, no, he really would just say that." I love how unreservedly they love each other, how neither of them feels like their love is a threat or a danger. They tease and deflect a little, but even when they're deflecting they usually do it in a way that tries to reveal something as well. They so badly want to know and be known. I just really love them a lot.
Sometime soon I want to muse on what makes me keen to write fic for a story, when there are others I love as much or more but don't particularly want to write for. Meantime, the wenzhou is almost done so I should be posting it this weekend and then getting back to my poor, sweet, emotionally-tongue-tied zhanchengxian.
